Today on Facebook, my friend tagged in a post and asked me to say what happened when I was 14 years old. I stunned at the screen. Looking back, other than a few memorable memories, basically my life in Form 1 - 3 has been a blur.

Thank goodness, my form 4 and form 5 have basically a much more meaningful yet memorable time to me. Now lets turn back the clock. =)

Form 1 - Same class as Ai Ling, Sam, Jenn and Khai. Wasnt really close to Sam yet. But still had fun with Ai Ling and Jenn. Any regrets during that year? PLENTY.
I was involved in plenty of 'girl-fights'. I was being the most spoiled brat i have ever seen and i probably gave my family a hell of a time. =.= great year i guess.

Form 2 - Sat with Sam. =D Got close with her and i-dont-know-how-but-i-am-thankful-for-it, got close with Khai too. My friendship with Khai seems like a miracle. :'D We have never been in the same class before but our friendship managed to stay strong and still lasting till now!! Maybe its because we were never in the same class before, hence we learn to treasure it more? i dont know. But ya. I love you KHAI <3 and Sam =P What else? Almost got into a relationship that i know i would regret. Got to know the true meaning of liar and a back-stabber. =D Well, lesson learnt.

Form 3 - I GOT INTO A DEBATE FRENZY =.= oh well. but no regrets. Enjoyed using my brain once awhile. xD and spent more time with Elena Ong who has been my friend ever since Kindergarden. During one of the years in primary school, she invited me to her birthday party which we went to Taman Tun Park and play at the river. And i bought her a Kukumalu bag. LOL. Kukumalu stopped producing but i hope our friendship remains. OH. And i applied for prefects because i was forced by my mum but didnt get it and there was a major hoo-haa about it. Didnt took it well at first, but eventually treated it as a blessing in disguise. =) OH AND I WAS IN THE SAME CLASS AS MY CURRENT AND WILL FOREVER BE GIRLFRIEND - CHRIS LIM <3

and wait, we sat for PMR. LOL. Now i do remember, Jenn and Ry-Ann coming to my house to study together. NOW that was priceless *wipes tears*

Form 4 - I have been active in choir ever since form 1 but only now, i really started to get really close to Jacq Teng (thank NEWS and Arashi for that. Ya. They are fantastic THAT way. Beat that Super Junior =.=) Choir was getting better and better and we went for various competitions. Though there were ups and downs, but it was the music and bonds among choir members that made it really worth it. =) Oh, and thanks to Siew Sanz (you probably forgot about it but ya, its thanks to you.) I applied for prefects AGAIN. Not wanting to fail again, i worked like shit. -.- (not up to siew and victor type of standard but for my standard pretty high already kay?) so ya, i got it. and managed to get a good impression (i think) and yup got a post. Till now, i still dont know how i got that-.- As for my class, dont really like it. -.- BUT was in the same class as Shuen Wei, Sam, Ai Ling and Wen Li and Suzanne.

Form 5 - AH. VGL. CHOIR. ROJAK. most ups and downs are concentrated here but any regrets during that year? No. =D All the friendship that i have found and strenghtened made it all worth it. Besides, i learnt to not look at things in one way only.

(except for SPM. It sucks. )

Oh and a relationship that i should have never started. But if you ever read this, thank you for all the joy that you have brought into my life before i managed to ruin it all. =)

Do you ever feel like sometimes, our feelings are like a normal distribution graph (wtf -.-) there's like super happy times and super unhappy times.
And there are also times when you just feel like something is going wrong but you dont know what the hell is wrong.

Well, i am feeling both of that now. and trust me its not the world's best combination.

Today, i called up two of my closest friends that i have in Secondary friends. Both conversations ended weirdly. We always say that we would want to maintain this friendship till we are old but now i have to think: will that really happen?

Sometimes, i guess i can be pretty selfish at times. I was being a brat yesterday, throwing tantrums the whole time and my dad and sister had to suffer throughout the whole unpleasant behaviour of mine. But basically, other that a few words from my sister, they didnt exactly complained. And it made me feel even worse.

There are often times when i somehow just feel left out and even though deep down, i trust these friends of mine, i would still feel lonely and some times even pissed at them because it just feels like I am the only one not moving on when all of them have managed to make firm friends no matter where they go. Am i jealous? Maybe.

I guess i am the only who's not moving on, still living in the same time zone where all of us could still meet up every day. And looking back, i have often wondered whether i have taken all of their friendship for granted and not treasuring it more.
I dont know.

What the hell is happening to me.

looking at the stupid exam timetable..
god. thank whoever is up there that trials are over.
That night, i switched on the aircon, snuggled in my warm bed and slept at 10.00pm without any care for the world and the stupid countdown thingy that i have done for spm. Which strikes me, why did i even do that?

Sometimes i find myself a hypocrite(is this the way you spell it?), often do i tell my friends to chase for their dreams, life is short and live it to the fullest.

But looking back, am i doing the same thing?

Nope, i tried, took a step forward, met a stupid rock to block my way, reversed and never attempted the same road.

i give up. =)

Labels: life

I need money. FULL STOP.
for...
- clarinet fund.
- sajfdkjshjkafvietnamajsdfdfds fund
- CD PLAYER

MAD LOVE!!! <3
does not look much in point form. but anybody rich enough to sponsor me RM2.4 k for a clarinet????? or maybe buy me that stupid fabulous CD player???
OR
find me a job which i can earn BIG BUCKS.

Thank you for the money.

Departure Lounge is now officially my favourite cafe now!!!!!
Loved it ever since they opened at Aman Suria.
They decided to move to Uptown, D.U.
It took me 6 long months to find them. =.=
But the wait is worth it!!!!!
Their food is still my fav!!!!
Not to mention their Hot Chocolate!!!!



To Jacq: Yes, we are definitely going there together k?

On the 17th July 2010, Harmonix Youth Choir managed to clinch champion at the Selangor Shine Competition!!! I am proud of you guys!!!! =D

Thinking back, it really makes my hair stand whenever i remember how the choir was when i was form 1. This is 5th and final year in SMKDJ choir and to me, i have never regretted joining back then. If given a second chance to choose, i would still stick to choir.

Choir has opened up a lot of doors in my life and of course that's where i gained friendship that i know i would treasure for life.

It touches me to see choir grow so much and makes me feel even happier to be involved during the whole process. Of course, training is not all fun and play but somehow the end results will always all of our hard work worth it. Even when i feel tired, i feel happy.

To transform from a choir that only performed during school events five years ago to now, in 2010, a choir that is a force to reckon with and a choir that makes the school proud is no stroll in the park. I know that choral singing will forever be a part of my life forever. =)

Thank you to Pn.Cecilia, Miss Tracy, Rachel, Jacq, Fei and all choir members. <3

xoxo
jia

Labels: Choir, Harmonix, HYC, SMKDJ, Youth

I just dont understand why people often say, 'Now, people cant be trusted.' 'Be careful when you walk outside alone.' 'Dont talk to strangers.' ETC

With all of this, its hard to expect a child to think that what a bad place earth is right now.

But, look around you, focus on every detail and perhaps life might not be that bad after all.

True friends will never fail to be beside you, supporting you in every up and downs in your life, warm your heart and make you feel so much better and the most important thing, make you feel loved.

Perhaps i dont have the luxury to go out as much as i please, but perhaps this is a blessing in disguise.... I felt really blessed with all the messages eri and kuri have been sending me and i felt so much better!

So, look around. Once you focus on things around you and treasure everything that you have.
The world isnt that bad after all isnt it?





This post is dedicated to Elena Wong, Chris Lim, Sam Khoo, Khai Zhin, and Jacq Teng.
I LOVE YOU!!!